Shattered!

Over the last several months, I’ve been struggling with separation, bleak looking finances to the point where I lost my electric, water and car, and moving out of my dream home. Despite the fact that I have always known that God had greater plans for me; I still struggled with leaving mine behind. Over and … More Shattered!

Thy Will be Done…(What You Want Done, May it be done…)

Sure, not one of us is going to say, I don’t want God’s will for my life but, are we really asking God to make our will match His or are we asking God to make His will match ours? Do any of us truly and deeply believe that God has our best interests at heart? Do we believe all that happens is for our good, even if it involves suffering? If you still say yes, you might need to think a little deeper. … More Thy Will be Done…(What You Want Done, May it be done…)

Semicolon; A Pause but Not the End.

Often, God causes us to pause in order to teach us something or to redirect our paths. What we see as lost opportunities or grief are simply a means of pointing us in a better direction. “Lost opportunities” always result in something much more amazing and substantial. We can’t see these opportunities when we are so busy mourning what is lost and stuffing the empty holes in our hearts with things we think will make us feel better. … More Semicolon; A Pause but Not the End.

Meager Beginnings or A Lifetime of Blessings?

About a month after my 8th Christmas, my sister had her third baby. She was in her second marriage but this baby did not belong to her husband. Her husband had beaten her so severely that the baby was born early and died the next day. This also happened to be my brother’s 10th birthday and the day my father chose to leave. After this nothing would be the same. My mother was never the same, my father was never the same and I was never the same. … More Meager Beginnings or A Lifetime of Blessings?

Unworthy.

A running theme seems to be feeling unloved and unworthy. Remember this, Jesus’ most trusted disciples were murderers and thieves. Are you less worthy than that? They denied him, fell asleep praying and almost always got something wrong. Do you feel like they arent worthy? … More Unworthy.

An Angel on One Shoulder and a Devil on the Other? Or Something Else all Together?

We’ve all seen a movie or television show where a person is struggling to make a decision and on one shoulder is an angel and a devil on the other, right? In each of these cases, the “right choice” is so very clear and it is only a matter of doing what you know is right but the wrong choice is just so tempting.

Now imagine if the angel was dressed in red and had horns and wings and the devil dressed in white with a halo and a pitch fork. Now which voice do you listen to? … More An Angel on One Shoulder and a Devil on the Other? Or Something Else all Together?

A City Planned and Built By God.

This past August I almost reached the milestone of 15 years of marriage, well on my way to my dream of reaching 40 years. Holding tightly to this dream, I still sometimes wonder how it could be, that God’s plan for my life would not include making it to my 16th year of marriage. Ask anyone and they will tell you, “God hates divorce.” They will tell you how leaving a marriage due to adultery is allowed but highly frowned upon. They will tell you that if you pray hard enough and wait for God to work, that the heart of your husband will be changed and your marriage will be restored. How is it then, that God would not do this very thing for me? Is it something I did wrong? Am I paying for my sins? Maybe there is something wrong with me that my husband just can’t love me? Whatever it is, it just can’t be in the plans of God. Can it? After much prayer and deliberation, it would seem that this would in fact be my future. … More A City Planned and Built By God.

A Week to Wallow.

As I look back at this past week, I realize I have done a lot of wallowing. Can I justify the reasons? sure! Did my friends sympathize and tell me to give myself some grace? Absolutely! Has God given me His grace? I am completely convinced! Here’s the thing, God has given me way more than His grace this week! But before I get into that, let me take you through just a few of the highlights of my week. I am betting you have experienced a few of these. … More A Week to Wallow.